Peter?
Peter, are you awake?
I saw your eye move I was just thinking that when we get home we should change everything everything
new drapes!
redo the yard!
gut the basement!
Add a man cave you’d like a man cave cosy papa bear cave it would look great in blue with a faux wood floor add that lamp from my mom’s old house
Somethings got to change
This 21st century nowhere
Somethings got to change
Peter?
You’re listening I know you’re listening
Remember that email I was telling you about the one from “the boss” he just totally ignored everything I wrote him in my email the one a few days ago you remember and I thought how rude but that’s him self-centered like he’s inside of a disco ball like if there was a little room in it and all the lights are on him and the music is all for him and everyone is dressed up for him
Something’s got to change
Everyone here is nowhere
Something’s got to change
Peter…
Peter, wake up, Peter
There was a time… her voice trailed off and then:
You were different you were interesting you asked questions you were curious you shared ideas and dreams now it seems a wind has found you and taken you away and I’m stuck here did I mention I heard from my boss again this time he acknowledged my email but pretended my ideas were his!
Can you believe it?
Something’s got to change
Look for me in nowhere
Something’s gotta change
There is all this beauty
Don’t see any beauty
There is all this joy
Don’t see any joy
There is all this love
Don’t feel any love
There is all this life
Our friends divorce and drift apart
The dog becomes a mass of tumors
Brazil burns
It’s late; perhaps it’s early
In a dark room with tinnitus and the never ending throb of air conditioning
My ghost climbs out of my body
Glides through the doors across the balcony, the pool, the Yucatán
Ghosts go where thoughts go
Up on the ceiling looking down at the dumbest things I’ve ever done
Dispersed with the morning mist as dawning doubts litter the walkways in any and all directions
Oh this trial and error life
I won’t let you eat me
I’m not digging up
what was
buried years ago
The things we should have known
will not
smell better, only worse
What can be planted
on the grave
is now the concern